My Life

I am an incurable romantic
I believe in hope, dreams and decency

I believe in love,
Tenderness and kindness.

I believe in mankind.

I believe in goodness,
Mercy and charity
I believe in a universal spirit
I believe in casting bread
Upon the waters.

I am awed by the snow-capped mountains
By the vastness of oceans.

I am moved by a couple
Of any age – holding hands
As they walk through city streets.

A living creature in pain
Makes me shudder with sorrow
A seagull’s cry fills me
With a sense of mystery.

A river or stream
Can move me to tears
A lake nestling in a valley
Can bring me peace.

I wish for all mankind
The sweet simple joy
That we have found together.

I know that it will be.
And we shall celebrate
We shall taste the wine
And the fruit.

Celebrate the sunset and the sunrise
the cold and the warmth
the sounds and the silences
the voices of the children.

Celebrate the dreams and hopes
Which have filled the souls of
All decent men and women.

We shall lift our glasses and toast
With tears of joy.

Warriors are in the collosiums

Date Friday, 5Th June 2009

I am sitting inside my room. I am very exited. Why not, it is time when reverse counting has already started. Ceremony of curtain raise is going to start. There are three Colosseum' at London, Oval, Tent bridge. All coliseums have already decorated in beautiful way for this big show. The warriors are ready after they had trained and habituated them self for this beautiful show. There are soldiers of 12 countries. They will show there skills without giving any chance to opposition. Many of them will be sacrificed in this ""do or die" context. However some are thought to be weak but they are not loosing there hopes. Yes, really, why they should lose there hopes in that show where only one chance can change whole context towards you. Here weakness does not mattered because your one warrior who have good day can make every thing for you.

Yes, I think u have understood about what I am talking. The 20-20 cricket world cup is going to begin. Cricket is my favorite game. Its soul is running in blood. I have been an outstanding fan of cricket for last 13 years. I have watched many outstanding context. Many cricketers have been my Idol. Many time I cried on India's defeat. Many times I got tensed when my favorite player got out.

Today, the show will be inaugurated with collision of British warriors lead by Paul Colingwood with a less experienced group of dutch led by there Ryon smith. All market and conditions are inclining this game towards British, the reason is that dutch have only two hopes. One is outstanding performer of IPL Dric Nanes and other is Dochates who is highest ranked player among assciates with lot of experience in country cricket. But British are loaded with many arms, one is Kevin Pietersen, atom bomb of modern cricket. He is able to play any ball powerfully. He is skilled by both hands and only one who could play switch hit. He is supported by a consistent explosive Ravi Bopara. British also have prepared many arms in their factories.

So enjoy this context. Wait for my next blog in which i will conclude the hopes of different teams.

Receptionist

Some one says, this world is filled with omens. In our life we meet to many peoples, shake hand to them, talk to them and laugh with them. Despite, some time some one enters in our mind, boil it for some time and after all take his wy of life. In this story I am telling about an incident which disturbed me for 43 day.

After summer vacations of 2008, I had decided two targets for next year. 1. I would have to maintain an S.G of 8. 2. I would try to get foreign Internship.

At the starting of 5th semester every thing was nice. I starded study with full concentration. I had not missed any of my class during firsth month. One day I was transfering something to my computer. My one friend called me "DJ morning class is running". In huury I shut down my computer, and snatched pen drive without safely removal. And then at afternoon I came to room and and turned on computer. But what was that, no process. I again pressed the power switch and same result, I repeated this process for about 20 times, but,no result. My face turned to red. I asked to some of my friend about that problem, in reply got different type of answers. One friend told, "Window ud gayi hai." Otther replied"Nahin RAM kharab ho gayi." But now I was confirmed that it was dead and nothing was in my hand. I felt in sorrow because, since I purchaged it, it had been working good. I was surprised that how without any pre symptoms this could happened.

Next day, I consoled my self that, what was happened, might be good and now I can concentrate on my stuady. Since then I started using computers of my friends during need. Every thing was good, even some time I was much more relax because now I could concentrate on my study.

One day I met to my sr student. I asked him"Sir intern ke liye kab se appy karen?"
He replied"Tum second TS ke baad shuru kar dena."

I thought that now my computer did must be repared. I submitted it at HP customer care. In HP customer care receptionist was a beautiful lady. I saw her and asked her whole thing what happened to my computer for lengthend my talk. She replied with cute smile "main check kar ke dakhati hun". After she had checked it, replied"motherboard kharab hai" . I remain shoked. It was much more expensive, but there was no other option. I submitted RS 6000. She gave me her personal cell no. and told " Mujhe call kar lena jab theek ho jayega bata dungi". In formality I asked her name. She replied"Tanu". Then I left that place.

That night to made some fun I called her "tanu ji, mere computer mein ek aur problem hai, usaka DVD drive bhi kam nahin karta hai." . She replied"itani raat mein yad aayi hai, main sone jaa rahi hun." "Itani jaldi " I replied. " han, raat ke 11 baj chuke hain, OK, achchha kal centre aa jana vahan par baat karenge"

Next day at 5.30 pm I reached to the centre and she was leaving. I told he"Mam aapne kaha tha 5.30 par aajana, aap to jaa rahi hain". She replied"are han koi baat nahin, mere sath highway tak chalo mujhe bhi vahin jana hai,". "OK mam" "kya problem hai compu mein" "are problem, are problems hain. kal hi aap ne bola mother board kharab hai" "han, to ab kya hua" "are tanu , usaka DVD driver bhi nahin kam kar kara raha hai, aur ab to lagata hai usaki battery bhi change karni ho gi" "ye kal kyun nahin bataya tha" "kal main kuchh bola hi nahin aapne hi computer check kiya aur bol diya ki mother board kharab hai" "oh, han" "kya cost padegi in teeno ki" "15 thousand" "kya" "han" "tab to aap mother board hi change kijiye" After then she chnged conversation in informal way "tum iit mein padhate ho?" "han" "kis year mein" "3rd year" "ok, kahan ke rahene vale ho" "kanpur, aap kahan ki rahene vaali hai ?" "main yahi, cant mein raheti hun. mere papa army mein hain " "good" "ok, saurabh koi problem ho call kar lena" Now we were at highwas, we shaken our hands and she left me.

I returned to my room and thought that she was a nice lady. After that almost daily I called her.Some time formaly, some time informaly. Lot of conversation happened between us. I expected that within one week my computer will be repaired. But this perior streched upto one month. I was very angry. I dialed to tanu, no reply. I tried many times but no reply. Just after ending of end term exams I went there with anger. "kya mazak bana rakha hai, ek mahine mein bhi theek nahin hua" "is week mein theek ho jayega " "bhad mein jaye, hame bewkoof samajh rakha hai" "actually parts avaible nahin the " "kya, itane computer benchati ho aur parts nahin" "han" I changed my tone of speech, "ye bata, call kyun nahin reciev kar rahi thi" "sorry" "what sorry" then requested to go out of office we walked for about 15 minute over street. I expelled my whole frustration over that lady. "sorry, mujhase galti hogayi" she replied. "sorry chhodo, mera computer jaldi theek karo mujhe kaam hai" "dekho is week mein ho jayega" "han, jaldi kyunki mujhe ab tumase baat nahi karni hai "

This was my last conversation with her. Three days after Officer of thre center called me "aap ka name saurabh hai," this sentence had filled me with fear, I thought that what is happening,she might had complait,but after a pause officer continued"aap ka computer theek ho gaya hai, le jayiye aa kar". I felt much relax and took a long breath. Suddenly I went there and took my computer. I saw that lady with corner of my eyes. She was gazing at me, but then i had no interest on her.

In this way this story of 43 days ended with sadness. Then in my room I checked my computer, it was working . And then last time I think about that lady with heart, and finaly I erased her no from my cell.

How was this, And plz write comment on this with sugestion that how one can handel such situations.

Thank You

एक सफ़र

प्यारे दोस्तों,

हिंदुस्तान की तरक्की देखनी हो इसकी रेलगाडियां सब से उत्तम जगह है, आपने सुना तो होगा की हिंदुस्तान की आबादी १२० करोड़ है, पर कभी देखा नहीं होगा| जी हाँ हम बात कर रहे हैं अपने देश की रेलगाडियों की| अगर आपको अपने देश की जनसंख्रा की समस्या को महासूश करना हो तो इसकी लौहपथ गामिनी अतिउत्तम जगह है|
अभी कुछ दिन पहेले की बात है ग्रीष्मकालीन अवकाश के उपलक्ष्य में मैंने एक सप्ताह के लिए घर जाने का निशचय किया| हालाँकि मैंने चंडीगढ़ एक्सप्रेस के लिए आरक्षण करा लिया था, पर क्या करें जब सिर पर शनि की सधे सत्ती सवार हो तो कुछ भी अच्छा नहीं होता है| मैंने हाल-हाल में अपनी कुछ दिमागी और दिली समस्याओं से उबरा था| लेकिन कोई बात नहीं, असल में हुआ ये की ग्रीष्मकालीन प्रवास के लिए शुल्क जमा करने और हमारी विभागाध्यक्षा की अनुपस्थिति कारन मेरा प्रस्थान विलंबित हो गया| आखिर में सारी औपचारिकताये निभा कर मैंने २४ को घर जाने का निश्चय किया| मेरा घर जाना बेहद जरूरी हो गया था क्यूंकि मुझे अपने एक बेहद घनिष्ठ मित्र का का सिफारिश पत्र भी ले जाना था| आखिर में मैंने २४ की रात को खुश दिल से घर के लिए प्रस्थान किया, खुश इसलिए था क्योंकि आई. पी. एल. क्रिकेट में मेरे पसंदीदा समूह ने जीत पायी थी |
और आखिर में, मैं एक रिक्शा कर के स्टेशन पहुँच गया| हालाँकि आरक्षण न होने के कारन मैं बहुत विचलित था, मेरे बैग में मेरा संगणक भी रखा था और उसकी सुरक्षा के प्रति मैं आशवस्त नहीं था| आखिर में लौहपथ गामिनी एकदम सही समय पर आ पहुंची| मैंने जल्दी से अपना सामान उठाया और सामान्य श्रेणी के डिब्बे की तरफ भगा, लेकिन वहां का नजारा देख कर सहम गया| सारे डब्बे अपनी पूरी क्षमता से अधिक भरे हुए थे| आखिर में मुझे कुछ नहीं सूझा तो एक दो यात्रियों से लडाई कर के खुद को एक डिब्बे के अन्दर ठूस दिया| लेकिन मैं बहुत सौभ्ग्यसाली था की अगले स्टेशन पर ही गाड़ी खली हो गयी| और मैं बेहद आराम से घर जा पहुँचा और इसी अनुभव के कारन मैंने वापसी का भी आरक्षण ना करने का निश्चय किया| और ख़ुशी -२ घर पहुच गया| एक सप्ताह के प्रवास के बाद मैंने वापस लौटने का निश्चय किया, और रविवार को लखनऊ के लिए निकल पड़ा, कुछ गृह कारणों से मैं काफी जल्दी लखनऊ पहंच गया| वहां पर अकेले ५ घंटे बिताना भी बेहद कष्टप्रद था| लेकिन किसी तरह क्रिकेट सम्राट और इंडिया टुडे को पढ़ते हुए मैंने मैंने ६ घंटे गुजर लिए| ठीक रात्रि के १०.३० बजे गाड़ी प्लेटफॉर्म नंबर ३ आ लगी| और मैंने आव देखा न ताव और जगह पाने के उद्येश से चलती गाड़ी में ही चढ़ गया पर अफ़सोस कोई जगह उपलब्ध नहीं थी| मैं बेहद आशचर्य में था की ऐसा कैसे हुआ और ये लोग कहाँ से आ गए| इसतरह से गाड़ी लखनऊ में ही अपनी पूरी क्षमता के साथ भर गयी| और मैंने पूरा सफ़र खड़े-२ तय किया, तब पहेली बार मुझे अपनी क्षमताओ पर आशचर्य हुआ की मैं ८ घंटे कैसे खडा रह सकता हूँ| पर आखिर किसी तरह मैं रूडकी पहुंचा |

My Primary Education.

Good Morning.

As we know that the academidic ability is the most recognise measurement of any mental talent. But in my case every thing is not so good and You may be surprised that my academic records are not showing my real mental talent and ability.

So what are reason behind this?

The main reason behind this is my parallel life which is really pathetic and not so smooth. It has many high and low. But finally every thing is not bad.

So here now I am explaining whole journey of academic life.

" It was the time when villages were still in the bulockcart age. During that time tractors were entering in Indian farms. I was about 2.5 year old when first time I understood that in actual what is a book. That was the time when we normally use to write in wooden slates. To erasing the writing we were using the Black Paint which was made by carbon accumulated in roof of Almeria because of lamp.

The first word what I learnt was obviously "ROTI", I got much help from my educated mother. She practised me writing by holding my hand over slate. She always insisted me to write something on slate. Surprisingly all this process was very interesting to a child with age of 3 year. She learnt me whole numbers up to 100. And I could read the book fluently at the age of 4year.

This process seemed very fast to all all my neighbours, and they normally told that I am very intelligent.

The most crucial transition came to my education during my 2 month stay at mathura, in the Town of Chhata. During that stay first time I learnt any thing in English at the age of 5 year. It may be very surprising to you that those two month were the main foundation of my academics.I learnt so many thing during those two month. I learnt all multiple up to 40 and learnt first english poem that was famous " twinkle-Twinkle", however up to this stage of life I was a cacographer. I was very good in reading but very poor in writing, which is still my problem.

On the basis of that academic base I returned to home with a changed personality as a child who know much more. After that I spent some month at "Anganbadi' Classes of my mom. Then After that At age of six year my father directly admitted me in third standard in his school. At that time I had solved all the mathematics up to 6th standard . One day I was writing an answer of geography that was " Rakesh Sharma was first Indian who travelled in space", I don't know why after that he changed as my Idol. This generate my interest in geography, and I started to reading the books of geography. I had read all geography books up to 8th standard when I passed 4rth class. It may be very surprising to you that i have major knowledge of almost 80% countries of the world.

After that I admitted in primary school of my village, and this was the period when my education came into reality means "learn things only for exams".
Every one was expecting me that I would be the topper of the batch but I underperformed due to lack of writing skills. During that year I started preparation for Navodaya vidyalaya entrance exams but I could not able to apply there due to Underage problem. That's why I studied in sixth standard in my village then next year somehow I managed My admission at JNV sarsaul Kanpur Nagar through cracking entrance exams. Then also my age was less than requirement but by managing pirated copy of marksheet wid 3 moth of extra age I entered in JNV Kanpur.

The life inside JNV was quite different and I suffered with many incident there. I will write about this life in future.

So good bye now.
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