Its Damn Emotions

It was a great evening, Robert was too happy; he was waiting for two of his friends who were coming from nearby location. The two friends, his best friends, he love them. Steve was an extrovert person with great level of patience, while other one Muhammad, a verbose, highly emotional and little bit irritating. At last they reached; Robert welcomed them and arranged drink. Robert asked to some colleague to join the party, they enjoyed for three hours at a nearby rural restaurant located in the open place at the outskirt of the city. Robert ignited some intellectual discussions during the fun time. Robert is fond of debates on practical and emotional topics. At last he ended party with good notes.

For the last 6 months, Robert had been in some emotional dilemma. Actually he had fallen in attraction with a girl. Robert, who did not know the alphabets of love and emotions found himself in a confused state. He thought that he was in a usual attraction. Time passed gradually. Robert thought that with time he will be out of those emotions so he preferred to wait instead of taking any action to overcome the emotions. After two months Robert realized that his emotions were more than simple attraction. He reflected a lot; after all he found that his emotions were not harmful so he did not feel any need to be worry. But in parallel a hidden process was running and Robert had no idea about that. Robert never felt that in between he started to find and make opportunities to interact with the girl. Robert was working in a philanthropic organization where special attention was being paid towards human emotions and value system. Might be this was the reason that’s why Robert got chance to reflect on his emotions. Robert lost his work productivity. One day Robert though about his emotions while coming back from organizational routine process, and he concluded that he had fallen in love.

Next two days Robert pondered over his emotions and the subjects of emotions. He also thought about the girl for whom now he had feelings of love. Hundreds of time he decided to tell everything to the girl but the next moment he erased the idea. He was not getting courage, he was anxious because Jasmine was his good friend and colleague. On the second evening Robert was busy in playing some computer games. Suddenly someone knocked the door, Robert asked to the person, and she replied “ Jasmine”. Robert opened the door; he made some discussions with her he but couldn't tell her about his feelings. After 1 hour Jasmine got back to the home. Robert was angry on himself as he missed an opportunity to share his feelings. Suddenly unconsciously Robert sent her message about his feelings. He did not get any reply. Whole night Robert pondered over his actions and made many speculations. Next day by chat he asked to the girl about his action and said sorry. From then he had no communication with the girl regarding this and Robert caught in the intensity of emotions. He sent 100s of messages to Jasmine but jasmine showed no interest. One day after a mail Jasmine invited him to her room. She acknowledged him that she had no feelings in his favor. Some drop of tears fallen of Robert’s eyes. He did not expect a hard landing like that. For the next few hours he tried to hold his emotions.  Robert wrote a letter to Jasmine regarding his current emotions and feelings.

Days were flying and gradually Robert caught in serious depression and he stopped loving himself. He tried and asked for some negotiations with Jasmine. But gradually Jasmine became anxious about Robert’s emotions for her and she lost her health. Lot of aggressive conversation between Robert and Jasmine happened and they lost their friendship too. Lot of hidden processes occurred in between. This whole incident agitated Robert.

 Hence Robert thought about an Idea, he felt that his friends might help him to negotiate the process and so he invited them.

After the party everyone slept quickly. Next morning was good and Robert was busy in intense discussion with his friends. After 10 am Steven went to meet Jasmine and Robert accompanied him. Robert planned for detailed discussions with jasmine and hence he requested her for dinner and she simply denied. She told that she could not make everyone happy. Robert was shocked and he could not hold and hence he decided to cut off his emotions brutally. He announced his emotions and love love publicly  For a moment Robert felt in deep relax and felt light with brain. Robert was satisfied with his emotions and his actions with Jasmine, he thought that he did his best to present and share his feelings with Jasmine. Robert was convinced with his actions because he knew that his emotions were precious and so he has right to live those moments of anxiety and love. But after all Robert was sad with whole incident because he knew that the story was unfinished. Robert still believes that story will never end because love will never end.

Robert is not happy with his actions but he is not feeling any regret, he did his best to solve things and he did everything with good intention. Although Robert believes that he could not mange proper communication with all stake holders and hence things got more messed up but Robert knows that everything is fair in love and that’s why love is sweet and holy.

  

Morning......

It was not an usual day, I woke up early morning. not feeling well because of incomplete sleep. But within 10 minutes i recovered myself. Still I was lost because of emotional dilemma. Suddenly I remembered that for today all of us promised to resume Frisbee, and hence I sent message to everyone. Within 5 minute I was dressed up and moving towards ground with my bag. 

The morning was little bit chilled with slow breeze, as always I was thinking, i went to the past and started travelling a journey. My journey was on my emotions. I was thinking again and again. I was happy on my commitments. For me human are to be loved. I found that my love is motivation for me. Thoughts were endless. I was thinking about my approach towards things. I was thinking about my attitude, and my sentiment. Eventually I was agitating me. I was on foot and moving towards ground located at more that 2 km from house. 

Some how I was in ground. I forced me to come out of the thoughts. I found that there was no one on the field. I felt a low but suddenly recovered. I found some birds were chirping all around. The sun was rising up. Scene was too beautiful. Air had made bend on sand, even the micro dunes were still fresh. The best   time you can have is when you have forgot everything and feel pleasure by nature. For a moment my heart pain was  healed up. I was lost, Lost...........

I unpacked my camera and suddenly clicked some shots. I scanned the whole ground. I found a mysterious silence.  Silence with hopes. It knows that after all it had destiny to be end. Suddenly i came to the reality and found that i was there for whole 30 minute. It was the moment when my feet automatically turned back. Suddenly everything change. My heart again became heavy. My brain became busy. I had no info about when I reached to the State Highway. 

I was moving in off mood, suddenly Sandeep appeared with his scooty. We greeted each other and turned back to the different ground. And then we played Frisbee for a while. 6 persons from the local community joined us. Some thing was better that expectation. 

Everything ended in 30 minutes. I was happy, happy with the response of those new guys. They were feeling amazed. But my satisfaction was not as per expectations. I expected that my colleagues would had joined me but no one was there except me and sandeep. I was curious about the fact and hence i joined sandeep to visit the different residences. First, I went to the House no 3, and was socked that many one were sleeping as it was 8 am. Then I visited girls residence and, there, I was not socked but I was surprised. Surprised because of silence. I chatted with Kanhaiya Ji on lot of issues. 

So, what do you think, each morning has so much to write. Each morning passes with Love, Confusion, Initiatives, Rigor and all the hard and soft core competencies. Each morning scans a leader in you. Each morning scans a Human in you. As for me, each morning is beautiful as I remember the loved one, I remember the last day, i remember the happiness. Each morning is different, for me. Morning is the time to laugh, to weep, to think and reflect and more of that to recharge myself. Morning teaches me that the whole day is mine so do whatever I love.