Freedom

Today, when the whole nation celebrated the freedom, I was not there to celebrate it. For me it was a day when I revisited past 70 years and tried to to connect the dots in our progress. I tried to draw a future path to increase our freedom and how government can truncate itself and how citizens can keep their diversity intact. The key factors play important role in our freedom are education, health, agriculture, industry and defense. True freedom means every citizen have access to these irrespective of her/his coordinates. True freedom is when people can realize that the political system is to serve them, not to administer them. True freedom means when people can make independent choices in their personal sphere. India was among the first nation when it adopted truth at large scale, Gautam Buddha founded the truth of life and the society propagated it in their influence. I feel truth, non violence, cooperation, kindness and equality represent true freedom. India lived it's golden days when truth was prevailing in the society. We again need to establish the same.

Cricket for Me?

" He played outstanding, hit 16 fours"
These were the first lines I heard about cricket. Its been 21 years be still this memory is fresh in my mind. My father was discussion to one of my relatives regarding the World Cup match between Indian and Kenya in 1996. He was discussing about Sachin's great inning.

Two days later I was listening live commentary. the match was between India and Pakistan. Its been 38 overs of the Pakistan's inning who were chasing then. Eventually Pakistan lost the match. During discussion with my father I got to know that Jadeja hit four sixes in the same match. 10 years later I got to know that he smashed Waqar Unus in the same match. It was exciting and I listened the commendatory of the first semifinal but only last 3 overs in which Australia won. In the second semifinal I did listen the entire second inning of India's humiliating defeat. Four year later I got to know that that was the match which defined Vinod Kambali's cricket career. I had little interest in the world cup final but heard in news that Sri Lanka won the contest.

My journey to the cricket begun with emotional touch. In beginning only India's matches were the matter of interest. In the same year the Independence cup made me cricket's die hard fan. India won the Independence cup. But before the Independence Cup India toured England to lose a Test Seriese. The English tour produced two of the most favorite cricketers, Saurav Ganguly and Rahul Dravid. Before that I was the fan of Mohammad Azaharuddin because my  father was. Saurav Ganguly had become the only cricketing interest during the time. I liked him more than Sachin, Azahar and everyone else. He satisfied my interest with outstanding performance in the beginning of  his career. In next 3 years India lost multiple series and it resulted in humiliating departure of Sachin Tenduler from captaincy. Although there were few glories, India's performance in Sahara Cup in Toronto and in Sharjaha. But few sad moments which I still remember were associated with India's contest with Srilanka. Jaisurya and Roshan Mahanama broken record for the highest partnership and made India a clue less team. In between Azahar struggled with his offsetting career and in 2000 just before the Match Fixing scandal he played memorable cricket.

The 1999 world cup I remember because of the Saurav Ganguly and world cup Semi Final. Saurav Ganguly played an outstanding inning of 183 against Srilanka and I still remember that. After 2000 I felt weakening of emotional touch with cricket. But during the same time I created a photobook of cricketers which is sill at my home. Now, my emotions with cricket were not only limited to India only but it became global and hence the cricketing Icons multiplied.

In the part 2 I will explain the story after 2000, which I consider a second phase of my cricketing interest which became global.

Stories

13 billion Years back when the Bigbang happened, since then everything is a story. Why? Because the most astonishing thing which Bigbang created was time. Time in itself is a story. 

The fabric of stories is closely linked with Space and Time. The incidents, phenomenon, co-incidents and everything happens in the universe is a story. 

I love stories, we love stories, why? We are born with mighty brain who wants to learn everything to make us fittest in the nature. This attitude of the brain is termed as curiosity. We are curious and anything satisfy our curiosity makes us pleasant and hence we express happiness. 

Stories creates emotions, we become sad, happy, angry, frustrated and curious. But stories are the core of our knowledge, or more simply our knowledge is nothing but a long story. 

Stories can be organized, classified and specified. Organized stories make easy access to the knowledge. Few stories brings sadness, few brings happiness and rest creates no emotions. 

We need to think and write stories of diverse forms, the diversity in stories improves our compatibility. The world filled with stories is more habitable than anything. 

This was the appology

This statement I am sending to all of you to apologies my mistake. My mistake was falling in attraction with a girl within organisation and sending her messages related with my feeling after her denial. I also breached the organisational value by trying to affect someone's personal life. I committed crime by briefing her name publicly in social networking site.  

All the above actions done by me were against code of conduct of organisation and hence I have been viable for punishment. I am saying sorry to all of you for hurting the values and code of conduct of the organisation. 

It is almost the end of the Fellowship and the whole incident have been too much painful for me. I reached in serious depression and could not proved my actual productivity during last 6 months despite trying my best.

During the 2 year of the fellowship mutual benefit  for me and organisation has been top priority and I tried to do best as per situations. But I had not been good always. The last 2 years had been wonderful moments for me and I enjoyed each and every part of the fellowship. The freedom given by organisation had been helpful in nurturing my creativity as much as possible. I know, these 2 years would have been 200% effective for me with better awareness. But still I believe that this fellowship is the best and nurtured me as a better human, person, leader and Change maker.  

I am really thankful to all of you for your valuable support at every movement, without that this fellowship would not have been so fruitful for me. Thank You

Right now I am feeling better and is in recovery phase, and hope that I will be able in moving ahead in eternal journey of life. I know this incident had broken your trust on me and no one would have been expected such action from me even I too not had expected. But I know everything in the universe is not in my control and I had to cross this period of time. I have learning and  realization with great enhancement in awareness.