Finally! one more mile stone, you clarified the things, I am pretty happy with your behavior. You know, you told me that u do not want to raise any hope but for me without hopes the world will stop. So i am hopeful for me and will be hopeful.
At your end the things are pretty clear that u priorities ur valuesfirst and then make any decision while at my end the values evolve at every moment, and at every moment i think on my decisions .
For me too their are some clarified values, and the most important is that always value the love, everything will be after that. Be hopeful for everything in the life, and there is no word like defeat exist for me.
If I tell you about current situation then things are quite complicated and really I have to travel too long before something comes on the way. Currently I am feeling too depressed and am not able in sleeping well and concentration is far away. Why i am in this condition, i don't know. If this is love which always be painful then why people fall in love. I don't know about tomorrow but really i am optimistic for some short of wellness. I have affirm belief that i am going to wait for you throughout my life bcz i value my love and i believe on change. However I don't know how i had fallen in your love but if i love you then my commitment is for you. And this is going to be my life long decision.
Rest your decisions are yours and you know better about what is best for you to live a satisfactory life with full of impact.
You know that the best thing which I like in you is your attitude that you have liberty and making your all decisions for you. You are honest and fair mind lady. I know that you are capable in aggregating happiness for you in life.
If i am telling that i am not sad by your clarification then i am not honest. I am sad, too sad and have been in love and that is why I am depressed. I know that racing heart and unbearable pain are truth of love, and this is normal. I did not wanted to listen your clarification bcz i had been always fearful of that. That is why i did not talk to you when I was most depressed; bcz science tells that any emotional sock could cause depression. And I was in fear and was afraid of you.
This is the part of love, now lets me come to the reality, i don't know how much involuntary love is, even my value system tells me that love is the most valuable thing in the word, but still i believe that love is not complete involuntary process. Why I impressed with you, why i started respecting you or why i had fallen in ur love. I felt that we are complementary to each other and complementing each other's strength, and that why u appeared best support system for me, and in this way i decided to work with you, and hence i decided to join your team but eventually I found that you decided to stay in my location so I changed my plan to join the team. Everything was looking normal to me but i surprisingly i fell in ur love. After that the real pain begun, even I tried to recover as i found the emotional shift but everything went in to the vein. Now u started running in my brain and heart started racing which has been causing a continuous pain in me. Sometime heart pain becomes so intolerable that i needed to send you messages to support my emotions and eventually as i could not talked to u, I could not share my feelings verbally so messages were the only way. Eventually i started feeling depressed bcz i was failing in everything. But with time i did rigorous reflection, 10 hours a day only on my emotions. I found that it was too late for me to exit.
Rest as today I discussed with u, so i am completely agree with the things at ur end but still I am sad that things could have been optimized. If there is nothing at your end then its true but the reason is that i do not want to be in relation within organisation is not looking satisfactory for me. If this is your value then there must be some background or evidence to make it rational choice. I mean, you are feeling some harm while going against this value, knowing this would have been more satisfactory for me. But I respect ur decision, and respect u too. My values too were same as ur but i could not control this despite so much experience in emotional diversity.
So, really something is changing, but love is not. I am again going to be rigid on emotional front bcz i can not tolerate. Simply i am feeling that love is not my cup of tea. Still i am sad but really it happens with everyone, everywhere and every time.
Why i am so emotionally weak? I dont know the reason but this article could help u explore the crux behind all this.
At your end the things are pretty clear that u priorities ur valuesfirst and then make any decision while at my end the values evolve at every moment, and at every moment i think on my decisions .
For me too their are some clarified values, and the most important is that always value the love, everything will be after that. Be hopeful for everything in the life, and there is no word like defeat exist for me.
If I tell you about current situation then things are quite complicated and really I have to travel too long before something comes on the way. Currently I am feeling too depressed and am not able in sleeping well and concentration is far away. Why i am in this condition, i don't know. If this is love which always be painful then why people fall in love. I don't know about tomorrow but really i am optimistic for some short of wellness. I have affirm belief that i am going to wait for you throughout my life bcz i value my love and i believe on change. However I don't know how i had fallen in your love but if i love you then my commitment is for you. And this is going to be my life long decision.
Rest your decisions are yours and you know better about what is best for you to live a satisfactory life with full of impact.
You know that the best thing which I like in you is your attitude that you have liberty and making your all decisions for you. You are honest and fair mind lady. I know that you are capable in aggregating happiness for you in life.
If i am telling that i am not sad by your clarification then i am not honest. I am sad, too sad and have been in love and that is why I am depressed. I know that racing heart and unbearable pain are truth of love, and this is normal. I did not wanted to listen your clarification bcz i had been always fearful of that. That is why i did not talk to you when I was most depressed; bcz science tells that any emotional sock could cause depression. And I was in fear and was afraid of you.
This is the part of love, now lets me come to the reality, i don't know how much involuntary love is, even my value system tells me that love is the most valuable thing in the word, but still i believe that love is not complete involuntary process. Why I impressed with you, why i started respecting you or why i had fallen in ur love. I felt that we are complementary to each other and complementing each other's strength, and that why u appeared best support system for me, and in this way i decided to work with you, and hence i decided to join your team but eventually I found that you decided to stay in my location so I changed my plan to join the team. Everything was looking normal to me but i surprisingly i fell in ur love. After that the real pain begun, even I tried to recover as i found the emotional shift but everything went in to the vein. Now u started running in my brain and heart started racing which has been causing a continuous pain in me. Sometime heart pain becomes so intolerable that i needed to send you messages to support my emotions and eventually as i could not talked to u, I could not share my feelings verbally so messages were the only way. Eventually i started feeling depressed bcz i was failing in everything. But with time i did rigorous reflection, 10 hours a day only on my emotions. I found that it was too late for me to exit.
Rest as today I discussed with u, so i am completely agree with the things at ur end but still I am sad that things could have been optimized. If there is nothing at your end then its true but the reason is that i do not want to be in relation within organisation is not looking satisfactory for me. If this is your value then there must be some background or evidence to make it rational choice. I mean, you are feeling some harm while going against this value, knowing this would have been more satisfactory for me. But I respect ur decision, and respect u too. My values too were same as ur but i could not control this despite so much experience in emotional diversity.
So, really something is changing, but love is not. I am again going to be rigid on emotional front bcz i can not tolerate. Simply i am feeling that love is not my cup of tea. Still i am sad but really it happens with everyone, everywhere and every time.
Why i am so emotionally weak? I dont know the reason but this article could help u explore the crux behind all this.
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